Tuesday, August 11, 2009

It's a two way street...

There's been a lot going on in the Wells household that I won't even begin to get into, but please say a prayer for our family. The last week it's felt a little like the world is crashing down on our shoulders and to be quite frank, that's a really crappy feeling. My husband is such an inspiration, though. I can think of three main times in our marriage where he has had the weight of the world on his shoulders. Each time, I've been lucky enough to see him trust God wholeheartedly and manage to be strong for the rest of us. Last week there was a moment where I had to be the strong one, which was tough to say the least. But, I can honestly say that God has given us a marriage where we really balance each other. He gave me strength when Nathan needed me to have it.

I'm so comfortable in my life, which is disturbing. I really like my life and I've been blessed, but getting out of my comfort zone freaks me out, which is exactly what God calls us to do. Every time God allows something to happen that makes my life a little less comfortable, that's when I call on Him, which I'm sure is why He keeps allowing things to happen. I'm apparently hardheaded. I've hit rock bottom before and that's when I turned to God. I call on God and He is always, always there, but God calls on me and I have to check my schedule. That's really screwed up...

He has promised a fulfilling, purposeful life if I follow Him. When we Christians say "that prayer," (you know the prayer - i'm a sinner and want to follow you) it's too often a Get Out of Hell Free Card, not a commitment to truly follow God. There have been times when I've devoted every ounce of my being and then there are times when something shiny catches my eye and I stray, knowing I have my Get Out of Hell Free card. But slowly, and sometimes shockingly rapidly, God pulls me back into fellowship with Him. What an amazing, merciful, powerful God we serve. He has yet to write me off and He has promised that He never will.

A friend posted Phillipians 4:6-7 on Facebook today. Although I've read it time and time again, I saw it in a new light today - "Do not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests before God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."

The very fact that the peace of God transcends all understanding is comforting beyond belief. Pray for peace and understanding for our family and pray that we will come before God with thanksgiving and praise. Let everything that has breath, praise the Lord, including me.

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